On My Journey
Uploaded by seek_jr on Dec 02, 2004
Gloomy days passed my eyes with tears, I didn’t understand why. Trying to show others that life is fair, a lie I have embedded in my heart. They saw me out having no problem but in my room, I hid it all under my pillow. Day by day having it all as I’m to see my last, the time is very short I’m gathering all that is to be a pleasant memory for tomorrow. If ever the clock rang early, I’ll be happy for I have committed less crime and my backpack is at the side of my door where I can pick it up easily. Then, I can go to stand at the court in front of the judge to have the verdict upon me. What could I forget if I packed it up early before I sleep? And if its battery went out I’ll be lucky for I can still work out for my misdeed and do it better.
Where have I been, these eyes were red? Sleeping too much that when I woke up I’ll be seeing my youth for the last time. What have I done? Nothing, I may say. I should have moved on with my feet that early so that now I’m not that much in the hurry. I thought I can escape my troubles by looking away from it but it didn’t work, it followed me. As for that moment, I asked myself, "why is life so hard and unfair?" I could not answer. As I moved on pretending to know I have no problem, I fell to a hole where I thought it was my last breath that I caught. The place was dark that the sky is all that I can reach up. I remembered that there is no way out of this. I must help myself. I reached up with all my adrenaline flowing through my body but still it didn’t work, I prayed to God and a moment passed, someone extended a hand for me and I made it out.
Should I still say that life is unfair? Maybe I was the one unfair, leaving my problems behind and letting others to solve them for me. There are many things that I should have done but I have realized it late. It was not really that late for my case because I was given a chance to do my best and...