Motivate my indifference
Uploaded by PaulCao on Nov 07, 2001
“So what college do you want to go?” asked Mrs.Scully. “I want to go to Harvard.”, “I want to go to Yale”, a group of 3rd graders eagerly answered. That was 9 years ago, and nine years later like the small desks with drawers, my “Arthur” poster hanging on the wall, the dreams of “Yale and Harvard” too faded away. Maybe you are like me, for the very first time in my life, I felt something different, something slipped away; insecurity, agony and remorse. If you are like everyone else in the school, these dreams has been replaced with the constant repeat of “GPA”, “extra-curricular”, “sports”, “after school jobs” and “AP courses”. No gone the time when we roamed the fresh, green grass of the soccer field on a warm, sunny day. No gone the time when we had our birthday where everyone from the school were invited. Today, at this hour, on this minute, our lives are controlled by, restrained by, and restricted by issues that we don’t even know why.
Suddenly, “college admission” wiped out “Saturday sleepovers”, “summer camp”, and “movie on Fridays”. Instead, the routines of our lives are replaced with “2 p.m test cram, I can’t afford to get a B”, “after school track practice, I have to break 6 minutes”, “debate team tournament on Wednesday, I am have to improve my win-loss record”, and “come up with a essay analyzing values of the author at 11 p.m, I need to get A”. Suddenly, the meaning of sports changed, instead of “nice job”, or “good effort” our coach used to say in little league or soccer, Varsity soccer, Varsity Football, Varsity Field Hockey is now “competition of the elite”, “tryouts that takes only top 15 person”, “today, practice is until 7 p.m”. Suddenly, our hobbies was no longer something that we like to do, now, “Mock Trial is good for college”, “varsity basketball will make me a well-rounded person”, “I have to be the president of Club East because I need some leadership skills”.
So everything starts to pile up. So the little things, big things, the things that you didn’t take notice before, every single priorities, all of the tasks that you have to accomplish, starts to take you apart, break you down, degenerating you. Yet, You try so hard, yet, I try so hard, yet he try so hard, yet she try so hard,...